Barabbas

“Give us Barabbas!”  you shouted.

Give us the criminal.

Give us the filth, the vice, the darkness.

Give us what we want.

We choose him.

 

Hearts are dark.

The Light is standing right there.

He is ready to surrender His very life for you.

And yet you say, “Away with this man!”

You want to hold onto dark and give up the Light?

You want to eat from the trough and forego the banquet table?

 

Just give us Barabbas.

We want to stay down here in the mud, in this pit, in this pain.

We want to stay in rebellion.

In pride,

In moral decay.

In depressive thoughts.

In distraction from the Truth.

 

Away.   The Way, The Truth, The Life, is led.

To ridicule.

To torture.

To death.

To what seems like a  snuffing out of the Light.

 

Light, though, will not be snuffed.

It penetrates darkness.

It draws you in with its warmth.

It is hope.

 

Jesus died.

So did Barabbas.

Jesus burst out of that grave, conquering King!

And why did we choose Barabbas again?

Oh yeah, we wanted the world, the dark, the muck…

When we could have had eternity.

When we could have had the Light.

 

There’s still time.

Don’t choose Barabbas.

– Susie Stewart

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Matthew 27:11-26

Meanwhile Jesus stood before the governor, and the governor asked him, “Are you the king of the Jews?”

“You have said so,” Jesus replied.

When he was accused by the chief priests and the elders, he gave no answer.  Then Pilate asked him, “Don’t you hear the testimony they are bringing against you?” But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge—to the great amazement of the governor.

Now it was the governor’s custom at the festival to release a prisoner chosen by the crowd.  At that time they had a well-known prisoner whose name was Jesus Barabbas.  So when the crowd had gathered, Pilate asked them, “Which one do you want me to release to you: Jesus Barabbas, or Jesus who is called the Messiah?”  For he knew it was out of self-interest that they had handed Jesus over to him.

While Pilate was sitting on the judge’s seat, his wife sent him this message: “Don’t have anything to do with that innocent man, for I have suffered a great deal today in a dream because of him.”

But the chief priests and the elders persuaded the crowd to ask for Barabbas and to have Jesus executed.

“Which of the two do you want me to release to you?” asked the governor.“Barabbas,” they answered. “What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called the Messiah?” Pilate asked.

They all answered, “Crucify him!”

“Why? What crime has he committed?” asked Pilate.

But they shouted all the louder, “Crucify him!”

When Pilate saw that he was getting nowhere, but that instead an uproar was starting, he took water and washed his hands in front of the crowd. “I am innocent of this man’s blood,” he said. “It is your responsibility!”

All the people answered, “His blood is on us and on our children!”

Then he released Barabbas to them. But he had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

Luke 23:18

But the whole crowd shouted, “Away with this man! Release Barabbas to us!”

John 18:40

They shouted back, “No, not him! Give us Barabbas!” Now Barabbas had taken part in an uprising.

Knowing

Be still and know that I am God.

 
Be STILL and know that I am God.

Be still and KNOW that I am God.

Be still and know that I am God.

Be still and know that I am GOD.
In the stillness of regret, of loneliness, of disappointment, of pain

In that stillness that doesn’t feel good

Be near my Lord.

 

Let my stillness not be wrought with discontent

Let it be stillness of abiding

Let it be stillness of knowing

Let it be stillness of observing, and tasting, and resting assured that you are God.

 

May this not be a stillness of mind wanderings and worthlessness

May I be still and know that You are God.

 

Therein lies my contentment.

Therein lies my fullness.

Therein lies my peace.

 

Stillness and Knowing

 

Before God Almighty, Loving Savior, Reigning King.

– Susie Stewart
Pslam 46:10 – “Be still and know that I am God.”
Psalm 37:7 “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him’’
Zehariah 2:13 – “Be still before the Lord, all mankind…”

Psalm 119:37 – “Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to Your Word.”

Mind The Gap

You are there.

I am here.

There is a gap.

I cross the gap and I see you, truly see you.

And you live in extreme poverty

The walls of your home are mud and sticks

Your front door is a piece of torn fabric.

My door here…

Well it opens to a very large house

With too many rooms for the few people who live here

The echo of your voice heard in these large spaces

And your family, all of you, sleep on a mud floor in one room

And you don’t have a bed

And you are tired.

I’m tired too.

I’m tired of the huge gap between me and you

Between how I live and how you live.

That’s why I’m moving.

Out of this familiar and comfortable home

Where rooms are plenty and I forget….

How you are not comfortable

And you may only have one meal a day

And you are a servant to the relatives who took you in

When your parents died…

The gap is too large.

I want to mind the gap

I want to do more, and then more, and then more

And acknowledge that you are suffering.

Acknowledge that you are there.

And I am here.

And there is a gap.

Not just in distance

but in tolerance of suffering.

Just enough is not enough

Radical is what God is after.

Minding the gap

So that you will have a place to call home

With a bed

And a family

And I find joy and purpose and I am blessed

Because I know for you, life is better

Because life for me,  has changed.

– Susie Stewart

Let us not love with words or speech, but with action and in truth.

– 1 John 3:18 (NIV)

Friends, please search your hearts for ways that you can love radically.  There is still so much need in the world.  God calls us to different things, but there is no doubt that He calls all of us to DO something.  This has been a journey for me of how to live more simply so that others can simply live.  I have been inspired by my daughter Nicole, who for so long has set an example of simplicity and a lack of materialism.  The book “Crazy Love” has had a huge impact on our family and this sermon by Joshua Clemmons.  No judgment cast on anyone else, just challenging all of us to find ways to do more.

http://www.trueimpactministries.com – a ministry that is minding the gap.

* “Mind the Gap” is a phrase that originated in London as a warning to passengers as they cross from a station platform to a train door.   

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Photos taken by  Susie Stewart

Let Go

 

Let Go, dear one.

Your head and heart are clenched tight

 

You think that you will be shielded by your bravery

 

But you are shut

Like a door without a handle

 

And you long to be out where you can breathe

Where God meets you in your pain

And those closest to you listen

 

And you don’t feel numb from self-protection

And you don’t have to be brave in yourself

 

You are free.

 

Let go

 

…of pleasing the critical

…of criticizing yourself

….of fear

…of control

…of your tender but guarded heart

 

God will be there when you open the door

 

He always is

 

He wants you open, not shut

 

….to experience life

…to try new things

…to love and be loved

…to rest in Him

…to have His unmistakeable joy

 

Let go, dear one.

He is your shield.

– Susie Stewart

 

“The Lord is my Strength and Shield.  I trust Him with all my heart.  He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy.  I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.”

Psalm 28:7 (NLT)

43 Days

 

 

7,514 days.

180,336 hours.

That’s about how long I’ve been a mama.

 

2 days.

That’s how long it will be before our firstborn ventures to Australia for 5 months to study abroad.

 

43 days.

That’s how long until our second born leaves home to go to college.

 

4,309 days.

That’s how long it has been since we adopted our youngest.

 

Just numbers.  Right?

 

Not when love runs deep.

Those numbers represent memories, love, pain, laughter, tears, joy, anguish, learning and growing, moments big and small.

The everyday days of the past 20+ years don’t seem so ordinary any more.

I’m a mother, and just like Mary, I treasure all these things in my heart.  They are like a gift to my consciousness, recalling a storehouse of memories at will.

Memories.

 

“I have 43 days until I go to college, Mama!”  she says, as she records all the exciting upcoming dates in her new planner.

43 days.

Her excitement is palpable.  This is what my husband and I have been preparing her for.  Preparing all three of them for.  To take flight.  To be independent.  To move on.

To move forward.

My heels find themselves digging in as if I’m being dragged to this finish line instead of sprinting exuberantly toward it.

I must continue to allow Your Spirit, Lord, to grow and change me for each new season.  Each new day.

Life is always changing; My second born and I discuss this.  You can’t keep anything just the way it is no matter how hard you try.

And that’s a good thing.

Change is inevitable and God is good.

Children need to grow up, to become independent, to make a difference.

Parents need to move on.  To shift some of their focus.  To remember what is most important.

My relationship with my Heavenly Father is of the utmost importance.  Above any other relationship.  His gracious Fatherly love is eternal and He knows me.

“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb…”  (Jer. 1:5)

Just like my mama heart longs for time with my children, God longs for us, His children.  He loves so completely and so overwhelmingly.  His love is like ocean waves that continue to wash up on our shores.  Unrelenting.

As my children grow, Lord, give me grace and peace for their changing seasons.  Give me your strength and joy for each of my own seasons, especially where they are concerned.

Thank you, God, for life.  None of us knows how many seconds, minutes, hours, days or years we have here.  Help us make the most of it for Your glory.

– Susie Stewart

 

Photo taken by Susie stewart

 

Dusk

 

 

The Light of Jesus has penetrated your darkness.

Has it penetrated your dusk?

He came in and saved you, pulled you out of chaos, oppression, sin, the pit.  There’s no doubt.

Have you allowed Him access to your dusk?  

Negativity has seeped in.

You have chosen not to rejoice.  You have chosen un-joy.  

People are driving you crazy.  Nothing seems to be working.  

Annoyances.

Gossip.

Dissatisfaction.

Discontentment. 

Disrespect.

Dis….

It’s not bright in your soul.  It’s only dusk.  

A partial light.

Hazy, not able to see clearly for the semi-darkness hanging over your heart and mind.  

Why do we long to stay in the dim sometimes?  

“Just let me have a bad day.”

 

A bad day.

 

Every day is sacred.

“This is the day the Lord has made.  Let us rejoice and be glad in it.” 

“Redeem the time for the days are evil.”  

“He is light.  In Him, there is no darkness at all.”

You are LIGHT.  He is in you.  

Holding on to dusk is not what He would have for you.  

Or for me.

Walk in the light. You’ve been pulled out of darkness into His marvelous light!  

Why linger in the shadows.  In the corner.  In the dusk.

Come out into the wide open space and honor Him, glorify Him, seek Him, love Him.

You were never meant to choose dusk.

– Susie Stewart

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Psalm 118:24, Ephesians 5:16, 1 John 1:5, 

Good

This morning I read the words aloud.

For God to hear.

For the angels to hear.

For the dark ones to hear.

“In the beginning God created  the heavens and the earth…”

What a sentence!  It is amazingly understated, but as I read it aloud, the profundity of it quickened my spirit.  Deep called to deep.

“…and God saw that it was good.”

My eyes, my heart, my spirit, everything that bears His image in me, knows that

IT IS GOOD.

All of His glorious creation.  It is good.

We gaze at a brilliant sunset, and our spirits say “It is good”.

We see a precious baby born, and our spirits say “It is good”.

We feel love for a person so deeply that it seems we might burst from the depth of it, and our spirits say “It is good”.

We stand on the edge of a great and awesome cliff overlooking a scene we can hardly comprehend, and our spirits say “It is good”.

We take time to focus on Creator God, we are filled up, and our Spirits say “It is good”.

“So God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him…”

What a treasure we have in these jars of clay bodies that we can live and breathe and experience “good”,

the understated awesome.

Lord, I will speak Your Name forever.  Out loud.

– Susie Stewart

 

Simplicity

Read these soothing words in the Living Bible translation.  And try not to rush it.

Psalm 23

“Because the Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need!

He lets me rest in the meadow grass and leads me beside the quiet streams.  He gives me new strength.  He helps me do what honors him the most.

Even when walking through the dark valley of death I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me, guarding, guiding all the way.

You provide delicious food for me in the presence of my enemies.  You have welcomed me as your guest;  blessings overflow!

Your goodness and unfailing kindness shall be with me all of my life, and afterwards I will live with you forever in your home.”

 

Our tendency would be to skim, to race, to fly through those words.  I think, rather, God would have us contemplate, soak it in, allow quietness.

I noticed something about this passage.  God is the “doer”.  He is the one reaching out to us and providing peace and rest.  Look at   some of the wording here.

The Lord IS my Shepherd.

He LETS me rest in the meadow of grass.

He LEADS me beside the quiet streams

He GIVES me new strength

He HELPS me do what honors Him most

He is CLOSE beside me

He GUARDS and GUIDES all along the way

He PROVIDES in the midst of my enemies

He WELCOMES me as His guest

And these things come from HIM:  Blessings overflowing, goodness, unfailing kindness, and I get to live in His house forever!

 

More than we could have ever dreamed to ask for from a huge God, King of the Universe.

Do you know you are being pursued by a loving God?  Slow down your pace of life a bit and let Him catch you.  It’s what your spirit has been longing for all along.

– Susie Stewart

 

Photo:  Susie Stewart

Present

Jesus, You amaze me.

I’ve been pondering something.  It’s hard for my brain to even begin to comprehend how, when you were here on earth, you knew the future, and yet you were present with people.

You were God and man at the same time, knowing all, and yet living in the now.

How did you sort through the thoughts and emotions of Your present circumstances when You knew the future?

When you looked in a person’s eyes and You knew how and when and where they would die, how did your heart take that?

Did that make it hard for You?  Does it make it hard for you?

You’re perspective is perfect.  And yet, Scripture shows us that when you heard about John the Baptist’s beheading you “withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place…” (Matthew 14:13)

When you arrived at Lazarus’ tomb, you wept.  (John 11)

I know your heart is gentle and kind, so it is no wonder that You hurt too.

“…for I am gentle and humble of heart…”  (Matthew 11:29)

I can’t help but think that Your heart breaks for those who mourn.  You see what death does to those who are still here and missing loved ones.

I imagine you looking at Your friends Mary and Martha, so fresh with grief over their brother’s death.  You knew Lazarus was going to die.  You knew You would raise him back to life.  I think maybe You wept at the sight of the mourners of Lazarus.  I think your heart was heavy for those who wept over John the Baptist’s death.

“When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, He was deeply moved in spirit and troubled.”  (John 11:33)

You were troubled, Lord.

You were present, even though You are omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient…

You are present with us.  You Spirit is grieved when we grieve.  You are troubled to see us weeping.  You know the beauty that will come from the ashes, and yet, right now, You are present.

Thank you, Jesus.  You came to “comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve…”  (Isaiah 61:10)

– Susie Stewart

 

~Dedicated to my Uncle Sam & Aunt Lyla Knutson, whom God took to Heaven on September 1, 2013, only 10 hours apart.  Thank you God for that gift of Your timing, and thank you that You know and care how much we will miss them until we see them again.

 

Up

 

I want don’t want to be grounded.

Hmm..

What do you do with that?  Grounded can take on different meanings.  The grounded I’m talking about may not be what you think.

This world has a way of weighing us down, almost as if it is pulling us deeper into the earth.  Troubles, trials, relationships gone wrong, the depressing things we hear on the news every day… it feels as if it has a downward pull.

God calls us to look UP.  He calls us to “set” our minds on things that are heavenly, peaceful, strong, gentle…… truth.  He is continually pulling us out of the muck and mire and setting our feet on solid ground or in spacious places (2 Samuel 22:20).  He brings us out of darkness into His unimaginable light.

My feet feel very weighted to the earth at times.  I allow the cares of this world to eat away at my thoughts and emotion, at my trust.  I am called to so much more!  “…because of His great love for us, God, Who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ…”! (Eph. 2:4,5)

Over the years, I have often thought about what it means to “set your mind on things above, not on earthly things…”  I’ve assumed that Paul was referring to heaven.  I’ve never seen heaven, so at times I find it hard to set my mind on it, having never seen it and all.  But, for me, this verse has come to mean even more.

Look down….

earth, dirt, gravity, weightiness, troubles….

Look up….

Sky, heaven, weightlessness, peace, freedom….

I don’t want to be grounded.  I don’t want to be weighed down with the troubles of this world, but to trust in Light and Love and Mercy — Jesus!

He is above!  He is the Name that is “above every name” (Phil. 2:9).

He is up!

He is in me.

And when I soak Him in and I listen to Him and when I trust and believe and I focus on Him, I’m not so grounded anymore.  I feel lighter and more joyful.  I’m not so concerned with how the people around me are not meeting my oh-so-important needs.

May I only be grounded in your truth, Jesus.  Otherwise, let my feet be just above the ground because I trust in You.  You are working in and through me as I look forward to my forever home.

– Susie Stewart

 

Colossians 3:2  “Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.”

1 Peter 1:13  “Be holy, therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at His coming.”  

John 10:10   “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”

John 16:33   “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Psalm 32:10  “Many are the woes of the wicked but the LORD’s unfailing love surrounds the man who trust in Him.”

 

Photo:  Susie Stewart