Emotion Gone Wild

We were not meant to be slaves

to our emotions


but rather


surrenders of those emotions,

subjecting them to God’s authority


These raw and beautiful feelings

are an important part of experiencing life


and they are one of God’s gifts

to our hearts


but they are not meat to rule

our minds







they all express

life here in this


and beautiful



And we aren’t to look at them

as bad


when the negative emotions come,


but allowing them to rule

in a dominant way



makes us out to be










We, my brothers and sisters,

are Holy Spirit influenced


and not emotion driven


Our feelings and emotions allow expression

but they are not in charge


of who we are


We take feelings that threaten to overtake us

into captivity by His Divine mind

and heart


and we rest

and submit

and offer


every bit of ourselves,

which includes emotion,


to HIM


We are not meant to stay stuck

in anger

or sadness

or worry

or even grief


but are meant to experience

unexplainable peace


when they threaten

to overtake


We allow the emotion to express,

but not take us over


and certainly not cause us

to sin


Surrendered emotion

under God’s authority,


captive to His love, joy, and peace


– Susie Stewart



A fool expresses all his emotions, but a wise person controls them.

– Proverbs 29:11 (GW)


Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done.  Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

–  Philippians 4:6,7 (NLT)


Do not allow this world to mold you in its own image. Instead, be transformed from the inside out by renewing your mind. As a result, you will be able to discern what God wills and whatever God finds good, pleasing, and complete.

– Romans 12:2 (VOICE)


A time to cry, a time to laugh; a time to mourn, a time to dance;

– Ecclesiastes 3:4 (VOICE)


Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don’t use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don’t stay angry. Don’t go to bed angry. Don’t give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life.

– Ephesians 4:26,27 (MSG)


You see, God did not give us a cowardly spirit but a powerful, loving, and disciplined spirit.

– 2 Timothy 1:7 (VOICE)


Jesus wept.

– John 11:35 (NIV)


…we take every thought captive so that it is obedient to Christ.

– 2 Corinthians 10:5 (GW)


Photo by Gracie Oertli




Wait for it….


















That’s what God asks us to do



Just wait.


And we want to not



but in the waiting

is the trusting


in the waiting

is the growing


in the waiting

is the God-dependence


in the waiting

is the patience-building




goodness of God


When we wait with surrender

He strengthens tenderly and mightily


Waiting reminds us

of the Lord’s broad view

of heaven and earth


and we TRUST

in His perspective


– Susie Stewart


Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord.

– Psalm 27:14 (NIV)


Yet, the strength of those who wait with hope in the Lord will be renewed. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and won’t become weary. They will walk and won’t grow tired.

– Isaiah 40:31 (GW)


I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
    and in His word I put my hope.

– Psalm 130:5 (NIV)


Surrender yourself to the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.

– Psalm 37:7 (GW)


Photo by Susie Stewart





A Free Prisoner

I am

Your prisoner, Lord


and what a freedom I have found

in this captivity!


Captivated by Your Love

and surrendered to Your will


I am free

when I bow myself

to You



and completely


My heart

My life

My marriage

My posessions

My family

My future




I am Your prisoner, Lord




I am Yours


– Susie Stewart


For this reason I, Paul, the prisoner of Christ Jesus for the sake of you Gentiles…

– Ephesians 3:1 (NIV)


This Lord is the Spirit. Wherever the Lord’s Spirit is, there is freedom.

– 2 Corinthians 3:17 (GW)


Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We’re free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him.

– 2 Corinthians 3:16-18 (MSG)


He went on a little farther and fell to the ground. He prayed that, if it were possible, the awful hour awaiting Him might pass Him by. “Abba, Father,” He cried out, “everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from Me. Yet I want Your will to be done, not Mine.”

– Mark 14:35-36 (NLT)


It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.

– Galatians 5:1 (NIV)


Photo by Susie Stewart





All In


All is His

and yet we grasp at it


He rules all

and yet we try to control


And when we don’t surrender

that which is already His


it only creates fear

and anger,

angst and worry


And it means that we aren’t all in

with Him


And once it is laid down

in love and obedience


He takes it and He blesses the sacrifice

done in worship


And there is peace in the soul of the one

who laid down the control

that was never his to begin with


– Susie Stewart


And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all He has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind He will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship Him.

– Romans 12:1 (NLT)


If only you would prepare your heart
and lift up your hands to Him in prayer!

– Job 11:13 (NLT)


That means you must not give sin a vote in the way you conduct your lives. Don’t give it the time of day. Don’t even run little errands that are connected with that old way of life. Throw yourselves wholeheartedly and full-time—remember, you’ve been raised from the dead!—into God’s way of doing things. Sin can’t tell you how to live. After all, you’re not living under that old tyranny any longer. You’re living in the freedom of God.

– Romans 6:12-14 (MSG)


If Jesus Christ be God and died for me, then no sacrifice can be too great for me to make for Him.

– C.T. Studd


Then Peter began to speak up. “We’ve given up everything to follow You,” he said.

– Mark 10:28 (NLT)


Photo by Susie Stewart



is so sweet


It is a free fall into the arms

of Abba


It is a breath of fresh air

after holding it for too long


It is the white flag

changed from black control


It is tight fists

released and open-palmed


It is the bowing of all

for God’s purposes



of sovereignty Divine


Surrender is necessary

for peace and joy



is so sweet


– Susie Stewart



You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.

– Proverbs 19:21 (NLT)


The Eternal made everything for a reason. Even wrongdoers fit in His plans; troubled times await them.

– Proverbs 16:4 (VOICE)


The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.

– Psalm 37:23 (NLT)


Peter: Master, we have left behind everything we had to follow You.

– Mark 10:28 (VOICE)


For any one of you who wants to be rescued will lose your life, but any one of you who loses your life for My sake and for the sake of this good news will be liberated.

– Mark 8:35 (VOICE)


Brothers and sisters, in light of all I have shared with you about God’s mercies, I urge you to offer your bodies as a living and holy sacrifice to God, a sacred offering that brings Him pleasure; this is your reasonable, essential worship.

– Romans 12:1 (VOICE)


Photo by Susie Stewart

In Between

This place.


In between.


It is an anxious place

or it is a peaceful place.


It feels like a loss of control

or it feels like complete surrender.


It is marked by worry

or it is marked with trust.






In between.


When you look back on those times

you should see



more depth

renewal of trust

more faith


But at times

you see


staying stuck





In between

should be a good place to be

because that’s where

you are stretched

and you depend

and you look up

and you are satisfied


Because it’s not about your circumstances,

but about your relationship

with Jesus….


Who knows what waiting feels like

and knows what dependence feels like

and knows what


…..feels like.

– Susie Stewart


A stubborn heart.

A hard heart.

An unyielding heart.

I read about Pharoah

and his stone-cold heart.

And I’m incredulous.

Good grief!

How could he continue

holding the Israelites captive


after plague

after plague

after plague…

God spoke!

Pharaoh feigned surrender.

He wouldn’t let go.

The consequences

the consequences

the consequences…

Destruction, pain, death.

A stubborn heart.

A hard heart.

An unyielding heart.

I can relate.

I have hardened my heart at times.

God goes to great lengths to soften it.

He works on making my heart pliable

as He unclenches my tight fists.

They go together – tight hearts and tight fists.

As I open those hands,

as I surrender all to Him,

as I trust that He knows

He knows

He knows,

my heart softens.

A stubborn heart.

A hard heart.

An unyielding heart.

It forfeits blessings.

It affects others.

It alienates.

It distances.

It creates chasms

between you and people

between you and God

between you and who you could be.

Lord, continue to make my heart pliable.

Let it bend and curve to Your beckoning.

I want

open hands of surrender


an open heart of trust.

– Susie Stewart


“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.  We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.  Because of the joy awaiting Him, He endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now He is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.”

Hebrews 12:1,2 (NLT)


Have you ever had times when the Lord was telling you to drop something, to strip yourself of it, to let it go?  That you will be lighter, more free, less encumbered, more effective.

And yet…….




That’s where I am today.  And have been.  It has bee an actual mental, emotional, even physical struggle.  I keep pulling back what I think I have already surrendered.  Why have I been dragging my feet in the dirt?


Simply that.

My pride doesn’t want to give up control.

I want to effect the outcome.

I want to manage this.

I want.

I want…..

In the book of Joshua, chapter three verse five, it says that Joshua told the Israelites, “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”  God has been reminding me of this verse a number of times recently.

He has been speaking.

I’ve been hearing Him.

And I’ve been… well, I have not been allowing the Holy Spirit to permeate every corner, to consecrate my faith walk.


That would take complete surrender.


Not surrendering is so exhausting.

It’s like running the race in your coat and snow pants.

That sin, that extra weight that trips us up, its heavy.

Stripping ourselves of that weight, consecrating ourselves before our Lord,  is essential for running with endurance.


“Tomorrow” God is going to do something amazing!

How can that be if I’m caught up in yesterday?

My surrender of the “high places” needs to happen today.

It’s not to be saved for later.


“They worshiped the Lord, but they also appointed all sorts of their own people to officiate for them as priests in the shrines at the high places……..Even while these people were worshiping the Lord, they were serving their idols.”    2 Kings 17:32 & 41

These things that we hang on to, the things that gnaw at us, they become idols we are refusing to give up.

Focus is blurred.

Something else in view.  We are straining to see God around “it”.


“Because of the joy before Him, He endured the cross…”

Jesus surrendered.  God’s Son endured and took upon Himself that which we want to blindly hold in our tight little fists.

He surrendered and “tomorrow” held amazing things!

He conquered death.  And purchased my freedom.


We run with endurance by fixing our eyes on Him.

Not the past.

Not our struggles.

Not other people’s actions.

On Him.

He is the Author and Finisher, the Initiator and Perfecter of my faith.

Time to throw it off.

I much prefer running without the extra weight.

– Susie Stewart



I want to be willing to endure:

~ pain

~ trials

~ heartache

~ loneliness

~ relational inconsistencies

~ unmet expectations

~ ridicule

~ disappointment


I want to be willing to surrender:

~ guilt

~ my “right” to be right

~ self-defeating talk

~ comfort

~ self-centeredness

~ control

~ convenience

…to bring glory to Your Name, to shine Your light brighter, to grow in You, and to come into closer relationship with you, my Savior.

Luke 22:42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

Jesus, bring me to a whole-hearted willingness by Your power.  Thank You for being my example.

Amazingly, the more I surrender, the more your love fits in.

Empower me to love recklessly, hope with abandon, and give without reciprocation.

– Susie Stewart


Photo taken by Susie Stewart